I would die for that!

So I talked to my cousin Amy today, she understands how I feel about my PCOS because she went through a similar situation with her Endometriosis. I love talking to her! She is such an inspiration to me, she is so strong and always has the best advice. She has 3 beautiful children and has been through so much in her life and I look up to her more than I think she really knows. Amy told me about her friend and the specialist in SLC she went to, I told Andrew today that I wanted to go see her friends specialist. I just want to talk someone that knows about it and to have them LISTEN!

I think this might end up being a whining blog but oh well. I am so tired of feeling sick all the time, feeling tired, frustrated and like I cant control my body. Its so frustrating to have a doctor not listen, or not have the answers. I am sick of crying. Sick to death of it. I know that crying doesn't help, and it doesn't change anything, but it relieves tension. I want to have a family, through conception or adoption, but we need to have answers about my health before anything can happen. I have accepted it, I'm not mad at it anymore, just frustrated I just want answers.

Okay people so here we go, get out your tissues. I don't care if you are trying to conceive, have a million kids, or even if you hate kids. This song will touch you! Its hard for me to listen to but I do it anyways. I think all of you will look at it differently when you ask a newly-wed couple when they are going to have kids. Every situation is different! Maybe they cant, maybe they are waiting, maybe they don't want them, just think before you say anything. YOU DON'T KNOW THEIR SITUATION! Its like Amy told me today, they aren't trying to be mean, they say something before thinking.

I would die for that
by: Kellie Coffey

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JqfGqOx2iDQ


Jenny was my best friend.
Went away one summer.
Came back with a secret
She just couldn't keep.
A child inside her,
Was just too much for her
So she cried herself to sleep.

And she made a decision
Some find hard to accept.
To young to know that one day
She might live to regret.

But I would die for that.
Just to have one chance
To hold in my hands
All that she had.
I would die for that.

I've been given so much,
A husband that I love.
So why do I feel incomplete?
With every test and checkup
We're told not to give up.
He wonders if it's him.
And I wonder if it's me.

All I want is a family,
Like everyone else I see.
And I won't understand it
If it's not meant to be.

Cause I would die for that.
Just to have one chance
To hold in my hands
All that they have.
I would die for that.

And I want to know what it's like
To bring a dream to life.
For that kind of love,
What I'd give up!
I would die for that.

Sometimes it's hard to conceive,
With all that I've got,
And all I've achieved,
What I want most
Before my time is gone,
Is to hear the words
"I love you, Mom."

I would die for that.
Just to have once chance
To hold in my hands
What so many have
I would die for that.

And I want to know what it's like
To bring a dream to life.
How I would love
What some give up.
I would die ...
I would die for that.

Thanks for reading, I love you all so very much!